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There is no one here to become anything. There is no becoming. What Is Present cannot leave. If everything Is Everything then who am I?

When we are dreaming in sleep, we become a character in a different life. Upon shifting to the waking state, we drop the dream character and load up the character assigned to us in this particular life. Where are we and who are we, between sleeping/dreaming and waking/living? When there is no loading up of a character who are we then?

The I Am is always Present. The I Am Is the dreaming character as well as the waking character. I Am Is the I Am without stopping for any character.

Does the I Am ‘ever’ leave? The question needs to be asked because we act as if the I Am does not always remain. Do we stop existing when we change characters? What is temporary and relatively un-real? What is permanent and always ‘real’? 

The I Am is expressed in the resonance of the words we utter and also in the vibrancy and alive-ness of Being. 

Our true identity is Beingness starting with the I Am. Being-ness is not a character. Characters all have a temporary existence. Being-ness is forever. 

Life Itself is living through Us, playing and casting characters. It is a real movie. But there really is only one star actor. It Is Nothingness. Nothingness is the Life living the ‘me’.

In any movie the actors personality is put aside in order to do a successful casting of a new character. Yes? How is that different from sleep-dreaming and waking characters?

What is clearly needed is emptiness and nothingness to give the best performance in character.  Question is do we really need to load up the character upon waking? If the character needs to be loaded up then do we have to act from the character?

The connection to the I Am ideally is always being acknowledged despite the appearance and/or disappearance of the character. This connection is Present always, despite any refusal to suggest otherwise. Ideally any character we play is played from our true identity of Nothingness. When Nothingness Is Present, a stellar performance is assured. There will be no complications from a competing false self to distort the presentation.

Our entire experience arises in Awareness. Awareness Is emptiness and knowing-ness purporting something/everything. Only the ‘Nothingness’ of Awareness can handle the expression of everythingness. There must be a platform for the expression. Everything always lands on Nothingness. What other platform could there Be?

Nothingness is our true identity. There is no ‘doing’ Here. Any actions taken have absolutely no effect on Nothingness. Just Being. Contrarily, doing and doership is part and parcel of physical space and dream space. The ‘character’ naturally abides there. The non-physical realm is where untouched timelessness Is Being Beingness. The timeless un-manifest Is the Nothingness before, during, and after any manifestation. The changes and appearances seemingly occur in physical realms in time.

The ‘Real’ Is always the ‘Real’. The nature of the un-real is ultimately ‘Real’. Abiding effortlessly as the Nothingness Is always enough whether a character is being played or not. Our true nature Is Here Now. Nothingness abides in all states of Being.

Who I Am Is Nothingness.


Awareness never goes anywhere. It always remains Present in the Silence, the Stillness of right Now. It Is the ‘right Now’ having no place to go to as It Is all Awareness.

Awareness Is always still, rather than the unnecessary engaging and perseveration in the identification of thoughts and the meaning of conditions. The ‘idea’ of self Is not Awareness. Awareness of ‘no concepts’ is Awareness Seeing before the establishment of structural conceptualization. Know that. That Awareness can be seen only by the uncluttered open Awareness. The temporary foreground never interferes with the permanence of the background. This is the true view of Nothingness.

However, the tangle of self is an ongoing obsession of constantly adding and maintaining artificial boundaries to secure a more stable self in the foreground. A belief in a separate character is created and sustained through constant efforting. The boundaries of this self are of course self-limiting systems.

The basis of this self is purely conceptual. Concepts are static not dynamic. The stasis of self then demands ‘a doing’. This ‘efforting’ then creates a dynamic separation from higher Self. The ‘efforting’ takes the conceptual base and seemingly activates it as a ‘doing’. These are steps and efforts away from just Being. There Is no ‘efforting’ in Being.

All the effort of establishing/reestablishing a false self results in hitting the proverbial ‘refresh’ button again and again resulting in effortless Awareness seemingly becoming effort-laden. There is no refresh button nor is there a need for one, as Awareness is timelessly Here Now Being Being. Effort-ing is a clear sign we have missed the mark of effortless-ness.

Awareness Is always first as there is no ‘other’ except seemingly so. And ‘that’ is the foreground dancing its dance. What Is animating the foreground is the background, unseen and untouched.

Eternal identity is the backdrop to all appearances. It cannot be anything but first and always first. Location is a limitation. Looking for a location is looking gone amok. There is no center to ‘everywhere’. Eternal identity is the unmoving backdrop of no limitations of time nor space.

Falling back effortlessly into “What Is”, is the background that never changes It’s formless Presence of Now. There is nothing quicker than Now meaning that Now cannot be anything but first always. What is second is temporary. Be First effortlessly.


‘That’ can be taken a couple of ways. First, Nothingness is not looking for a reaction. Nothingness does not need a reaction. As Nothingness, Nothingness is everything to include ‘seeming’ reactions. Is there anything Here that is ‘not’ Nothingness?! Nothingness Is without the doing of anything.

From the point of view, albeit a more limited view, the idea of a false self presupposes that a reaction is proper and/or required. This created ‘me’ maintains itself by replicating its false existence through a constant rendering of opinion and individual viewpoint. The ‘me’ must be sustained to be the ‘me’. Without the sustenance of pushing its agenda of survival by addition, replication, reaction, and inclusion, the ‘me’ will find itself unsustainable without this artificial iteration. The death of the ‘me’ would be a natural evolution as there was never any real life to it anyway.

Reality of Nothingness shines It’s fullness as complete without any need whatsoever, to include reactivity. The ‘I Am’ Is what is happening. But even deeper is the Nothingness that is moving all ‘that’. What ‘Is before’ cannot be quantified. The causeless cause Is everything. ‘That’ which perceives ‘the knowing’, just Is and that is enough.

The ‘me’ is an unnecessary reaction (itself). ‘It’ goes nowhere. ‘It’ is an endpoint not a beginning. Starting with the ‘me’, is absolutely going in the wrong direction. What Is before the ‘me’ is already Present. Staying Present is not reacting to the endlesss needs of the ‘me’ as our main focal point. Staying Present has no ‘me’ as a viewpoint. When we lose the viewpoint of the ‘me’ we gain ‘no view’ or no preference. That Is everything/nothing.

Since there is no one there to ‘have’ a reaction, we lose the preference for me-ing. Consequently, what is left is sustainable as immediate Presence in what Is before all that other jazz. The point of Being Being is found to be the backdrop of everything and that everything is Nothing. Nothing Is everything because It Is the sustenance of everything. Nothingness Is formless Awareness that has no depth or bottom. Is that not everything?

When we ‘stop’ for the ‘me’ we ‘stop’ Being Being. We stop experiencing and become ‘our’ experience. ‘Having’ an experience is a far cry from ‘just experiencing’. When we ‘have’ an experience, we stop for the ‘me’ to gather it up so the ‘me’ can be fulfilled. The ‘me’ time is mutually exclusive to experiencing ad infinitum. The ‘me’ opts to stop the perennial movment of Being to ‘contain’ the experience.

The question is, can we ever really contain and stop experiencing? Experiencing cannot be stopped except seemingly so. The falseness of the rendering of a ‘me’ is clearly a pretense. There Is only the nothingness of the Oneness. Nothing can be added to this Fullness. The ‘me’ is not a true default. The ‘Real’ Is Nothingness just experiencing experiencing constantly. There Is no ‘other’ Here.

This Nothingness is not an experience to experience. It Is just experiencing ad infinitum. There is no beginning nor end to just experiencing; to just Knowing Knowingness with no stops ever.

The ‘Real’ has no stops or reactions.


Waiting would be in time. Time would be a construct created within the breadth of eternity. Basically time or waiting, would be a subset of eternity. Eternity never actually would be left behind, but rather eternity would ‘appear’ to be in the background. The emphasis on the foreground, i.e. waiting in time, would ‘appear’ more predominant.

It is almost like the emphasis on time has eternity waiting. But ‘that’ cannot be because then we would be giving eternity a characteristic of time. Eternity has no measurement and/or limitation that can house its breadth and depth, especially something like ‘waiting’.

Eternity is immediate. Eternity Is Now. This ‘Now’ is not in time. This ‘Now’ is full with no missing parts. The eternal Now has no parts, or things, or pieces separate from Itself. There are no shapes ‘Here’ as emptiness/timelessness is shapeless.

The formlessness of Now is immediate. The ‘Now’ is not around the corner. The Now is always Present as Now. ‘It’ cannot be clocked like some thing. The unchanging timeless Now cannot be waited for in any time. The presence of Now is Now before and beyond time, with ‘time’ coming and going ‘in’ the Now. The ‘Now’ is not affected by the institutionalization or de-institutionalization of time. Time seemingly marches on. The Now is true permanence.

The ‘longing to Be’ in the Now is coming from the always-ness called Now. This ‘longing’ is meaningful due to its source Being Now ever-present reaching seemingly into time.

To wait and/or get ready to go into the Now is to immediately leave Now-ness. Even when waiting for things to arrive or pass, that ‘waiting’ is an immersive experience away from the Now. There is no reason to wait for anything (and leave the Now). The act of ‘waiting’ itself is an artificial mis-alignment with ‘Now’. Yes, one cannot really leave the ever-present Now. But the creation and investment of a conceptual barrier seemingly separates one from Self in the Now.

It Is just Now. Nothing really can be added except formless ‘nothingness’, which is not a thing.

Too often we engage in the act of waiting. Waiting on what is next is offensive to Being Here Now. Offensive in the sense that we dismiss in a wholesale manner, the ubiquity of Now-ness for a spurious idea of time. Separation occurs because we choose to leave Presence Itself.

In reality, there is nowhere to go, there is nothing to do, and there is no ‘next’ to find. It Is all Here Now. Of course, if we ‘believe’ otherwise we then choose the lesser vehicle, time and time again. Asking what is next is really a not so subtle choice to leave Presence. Being Presence is leaving linear time and what is seemingly next. There is no ‘next’ in the Now. It Is always Now.

There are no lines to Be in the Now. Follow the ‘longing to Be’ back to the eternal Now.


There is noone here (or there) to throw under the bus. We say (and believe) that everything is happening to me. We always add ‘the me’. Does a ‘me’ exist to even add?!

When we add a ‘me’, we seemingly separate from what’s happening. But we Are what’s happening. Our own reality says there is no ‘me’ to add.

Conditioning and belief will disagree. But then who is it that requires us to add anything to anything? The truculence of old programming arises. But again, we still are ‘only’ what’s happening.

Tirelessly adding a ‘me’ is Sisyphean to existence. It ultimately goes nowhere but down. It rolls down and crushes and re-crushes the false self.

Having said the above, there still is a body and a character association that is not to be confused with true self. The unmeasureable energy inervating the body cannot be quantified except in the most superficial terms. Content dies while aliveness is eternal. The vehicles we use fall under the rubric of temporary phenomena.

So, when I didn’t get enough sleep last night, it was the carrier body that didn’t sleep. It’s like my Ford Fusion didn’t have enough gas. It is my vehicle and there is a consequence. But that has nothing to do with who I Am.

 So now my car got a ticket. I didn’t get the ticket. But I have to address and handle the ticket.

I Am is before/after consequences and temporary phenomena.

Conceptualization and story telling result from reliving past experiences and/or reaching into an idea of future to pursue a different quality of experience. These ‘experiences’ are not an alive reality. There is no one and no ‘me’, certainly, to actually even find to have an experience. It Is ‘just’ experiencing. What is always there (Here) Is the Isness of ‘what’s happening’. When we slot the fullness of ‘experiencing’ into the smallness of ‘experience’ we lose the aliveness of ‘experiencing’.

‘Experiencing’ needs no ‘me’. We Are always experiencing! We Are always Being. Nothing needs to be added, ever. What is happening ‘to me’ really just happened without the imaginary ‘me’. And the ‘happening’ never goes into past tense as it Is always ‘happening’. There are no stops for the past that ultimately does not exist.

The ‘happening’ just keeps on ‘happening’ ad infinitum.

There is no story-telling in the awake field. The awake field is wordless everythingness. Ideas have no real meaning Here. Just Being and Happening Is enough.



There is nothing but nothingness.

There is a felt sense of Being Here when more emptiness is present. That feeling is the emptiness of Nothingness, with nothing else added to it. Adding anything is essentially a subtraction from Beingness. Beingness as Nothingness, is having that felt sense. Adding anything is adding the unnecessary. 

The ‘felt sense’ is a reference to feeling the direct resonance versus choosing to analyze and slot things into categories and conjuring an understanding.

What is the appearance of appearances and the changing phenomena is no longer the most important thing. ‘No thing’ is realized as everything. Ergo, everything is flowing in and out of Consciousness. Everything is the offering to ‘Nothingness’ as ‘Nothingness’ is realized to be everything.

There is a resting when residing in the permanence of being ‘Nothingness’. ‘Nothingness’ is the openness to letting go of everything to include thinking we ‘know’. Knowing the ‘Knowing’ of Being is enough. ‘Not knowing’ is essentially not over-engaging in ‘thinking we ‘know’, that is, conceptualization. Cognitive understanding would then be conceptual and at a cost and distance from Beingness.

‘Here’, there is no good/bad to separate into nor is there a separate one. Doing and undoing  is part of separation and always subsequent to existence/being.

The stability of Nothingness allows appearances to freely come and go. The point being that without this stability chaos would immediately result. The importance of Nothingness cannot be overstated.

Formless-ness is a subtlety that the mind cannot grasp as there are no handles to grasp. The ‘someone’ is not a subtlety but a fleshy concept. This concept we called ‘me’ is extremely limited in that boundaries ‘there’ are unmovable. Hence, there can be no movement past them.

What truly Is Present seamlessly, Is formless-ness unbounded. There is no start or finish Here, as It Is eternal Presence. Presence, even in the density of fleshy concepts.

There is no movement to Formless-ness as It Is never not Here. In the heart space, It can be felt as a subtle knowing and longing for Peace and contentment and Love. The Formless Subtlety Is all that Here and Now.

The backdrop of everything is Nothing. ’This’ Nothing is the most compelling Nothing. All forms are in this subtle Formlessness, moving in and out of It, effortlessly.

Be ‘that’ effortlessly Now as you can Be nothing else. 


Knowing who you are and knowing who you are not, is simultaneously handled by ‘just Knowing’. ‘Receiving’ this ‘Knowing’ is knowing.

‘Not’ knowing who we Are, is not being in receipt of the ‘Knowing’. The ‘Knowing’ Is everything, literally. Not being in receipt of absolutely everything tells us we have not arrived at our true nature despite our True Nature never having actually left.

Having an idea of the ‘Knowing’ is not the ‘Knowing’. Ideas are specialists in ‘not’ knowing. Ideas cannot know this ‘Knowing’. Thinking we ‘know’ is clearly ‘not’ knowing. There is no ‘thinking’ needed, ever.

This ‘Knowing’ is before ideas. ‘It’ cannot be reached through knowledge alone as ‘knowledge’ can become a distancing from Truth. Plus the ‘priorness’ of Knowing dis-allows any ‘reaching’. Presence cannot be lost except ‘seemingly’. Self-Knowledge is our basic fundamental starting point that never ever actually ‘started’ due to time having no constraints on Self.

The ‘Knowing’ is not found so much in the content as in the backdrop. Content is what is changing relative to backdrop which is changeless. The ‘Knowing’ is part of the ‘changeless’ more so than the ‘changing’ but at the same time the ‘Knowing’ cannot be divided up. It Is all Knowing.

Reveling in the ‘Knowing’ Is knowing the ‘Knowing’. Being both the changing and the changeless Is being the ‘Knowing’. The seeming distinction of change and changeless is blurred when all ‘that’ is received is the ‘Receiving’. The ‘Receiving’ being just a moving receiving with no stops for a person or thing. And no time for distinctions and separations from the wholeness of just Receiving/Knowing. It Is all Knowing and all Receiving.

The essential take on all the above is that the esential view is receiving the Receiving while only knowing the Knowing. ‘Thinking’ about all this would be a clear distraction. This ‘Knowing’ is not a part-time gig. And there is no ‘person’ to have a gig. It Is just the ‘Knowing’.

Constantly accessing Self is a necessity, given the depth of our stuckness in the content and the false definition of our identity. Access to Self is always possible. Identifying with the ‘Receiving’ receiving the content, constantly, allows a reorientation to occur, that is, as Divine being in receipt of only the Divine. The ‘idea’ of self loosens to merely an ‘idea’ and no longer an identity.

Freedom Is in this ‘Knowing’.


‘Seeking’ spirituality is more commonly, a walking away from spirituality. Seeking something that is a ‘thing’ is not spirituality. If it was indeed a thing, we could all buy some spirituality or perhaps ‘find it’ for free. In either case, a dead end is achieved; as the only thing that can be found is a thing. That would not be spirituality.

Looking for spirituality is futile as there is noone to look, nothing to find, and a clear mis-understanding on what spirituality is. Even defining spirituality is a problem, as even that is a force-fit into a very limited concept. The ‘field’ is not conceptual. It cannot be reduced into an aphorism despite many attempts.

On the other hand there are definite distinctions to be made as to experiential verification of ‘something’ present that is before and after any mind state and/or a single experience. The tenacity of the backdrop cannot be ignored as long as the content in the background is not hailed as a priority. The backdrop is never really seriously considered as a’thing’ due to its non-interference with any ‘thing’. The backdrop is subtle yet pervasive. There is never any interference from space.

Do we often remember the backdrop in a sleeping dream as primary, in terms of what happened? Even in a waking dream aka normal life, we gloss over the background as if it didn’t exist. But what if there were no stable background or neutral ground to distinguish content?! Indeed, the backdrop does not have a running commentary on what is going on in the foreground.

The ‘nothingness’ brings a stark clarity to the presenting reality. The space allows uncluttered phenomena to be known, as without it chaos could not even make an appearance.

‘Not finding’ spirituality is literaly putting a stop to pushing right past it. No place to go is Here. No ‘next’ thing to do is Now. Movement outside of Here and Now is delusion. Only in HERE and NOW, is there clarity. Outside of ‘space’ is not really possible. Outside of Now is not real. Spirituality is constantly happening only in the Moment in the space of pure existence. ‘Trying’ would be another dead end activity. Beingness cannot ‘not’ Be Here. Believing otherwise is another engagement with delusion. As there is no need for trying there is no need for a try-er to pretend that someone is needed to help the Vastness to be the Vastness. ‘It’ Is just happening.

If Beingness feels elusive, it is seeing the foreground at the expense of the Vastness of Being Being first as the backdrop and/or the Source of everything (forward).

The person is merely the happening of an event in the Receiving. The Receiving is only receiving. There is never any lodging Here. It Is all Receiving. There is no recovery of a person because there never was person that needed to be recovered, despite all the protestations. The person is an event like any other event in the happening. It is short-lived. The eternity is in the happening of the happening which is Receiving receiving the receiving.

Letting go of all the ideas of ‘something’ being anything but ‘nothing’, is liberating. Belief in dead ends does not make the dead end viable. The ‘Knowing’ before ideas, that is indigenous to Being, is the ‘Isness’ without the unnecessary conceptual framework added.

Be The Receiving with no stops or qualifications. Emptiness Is Us, The Receiving. Finding spirituality as ‘nothing’ finds everything.


For the mind to find ‘nothing’ when the only thing it can find is ‘something’, is not to be understood by the mind. If there is ‘nothing’, the mind will still find ‘something’ conceptually and render the ‘nothingness’ of ‘nothing’ something. Concepts are barriers to experiencing true ‘nothingness’.

The mind is a thing, a creation that has limitation not unlike any other creation that has finiteness. Ergo, the mind is fleeting, temporarily providing content through a very limited perspective. It is the wrong tool to use when seeking formless existence and ultimate connection.

Presence is not content. Content, like mind, is a thing. Neither of which have existence like ‘Nothingness’. ‘Nothingness’ Is existence. Having Presence Is existence having existence. The Presence of Nothingness is Being the existence of nothing. This ‘nothing’ is something but cannot be a ‘something’. The existence of Nothingness has no form.

The direct experience of Nothingness is not an experience. It is not some ‘thing’ having an experience. It is ‘Experiencing’ having ‘experiencing’. There are no nouns or things Here. Time doesn’t even exist because it is pure experiencing. Receiving the receiving without a receiver in the timeless Now, ‘Experiencing’ abides directly experiencing everything. Experiencing has no room for content except seemingly so. Ultimately it is all experiencing.

Experiencing, clearly is not something that can be found by the mind. Experiencing is putting the mind aside in order to go directly to “What Is”. The filter of the mind would be a limitation that would distort the fullness of “What Is”. Adding a ‘someone’ through the vehicle of the mind filters ‘experiencing’ into an ‘experience’ for a ‘someone’. Of course then, pure experiencing would then not be available to a ‘someone’.

Pure experiencing does not need any one thing to add to It. Adding to It only makes It less available. The point being is that content of any kind is not at all necessary to ‘Be’ It. We already Are ‘the Experiencing’ Now. And only ‘Experiencing’ can Be ‘Experiencing’.

So, what Is always known Is the ‘Knowing’. Even when we don’t know, the Knowing Is Present. Without the Knowing nothing can Be known. Even ‘Nothingness’ is known by the ‘Knowing’. Nothingness has Knowing and Knowing has Nothingness.

The direct experience of Nothing Is nothing but the Knowing. When content is being received without interpretation, then the Receiving is receiving. Any stops for the mind and its activity can directly effect the receiving. As long as content is not a distraction, then content does not seemingly disrupt experiencing and/or the receiving. The ‘Knowing’ knows the difference.

Be the Knowing of Being Nothingness which is directly Being and receiving everything while holding nothing. That Is all.


The ‘me’ is just another thought with as much substance as any other thought. The ‘me’ is also a worn and deepened groove that subsists due to perseveration and false belief vis-a-vis thought/thinking. One thought cannot be had by another thought. Thoughts have no substance as they are all ‘things’ or objects or appearances. Their solidity is mere iteration and agreement and consensus on their illusory importance and false consequence.