DYING TO LIVE
The desperation is unrelenting. Does it have to be so hard? Are there just short vacations between the onslaughts of strife? Is there a happiness that is not concluded with a termination date?
Are we just dying to live?
Are the goal posts moving farther out of reach as we approach? Can anything or anybody save this god- forsaken world? OR is our perspective all wrong?
The testing has been going on a long time without a seeming long-term solution. Dying sometimes appears to be the only relief.
Except, what dies is not the body/mind. What dies is the idea of being the body/mind.
When we so forcefully grab at reality for the ‘seeming self’, we unseemingly get attached/identified with the ‘seeming self’. This has been said and heard by us before. But do we realize that we completely missed the message?!
The pointing is not to the ’seeming self’. The message is to the permanent Self, from the permanent Self.
It is only with the death of the illusory self that real relief can be found. Concurrent with that death, is the complete divestment of our structured debt obligation, we have amassed in creation of this illusory self.
Our belief and conditioning in the illusory self cannot continue to abide , as it is ‘that’ that binds us to the false imprisonment.
The abandonment of the whole structure is necessary in order to be liberated from it’s influence. It’s influence, is our attachment to the thoughts, perceptions, sensations, and unidentified beliefs we recycle daily in our waking/sleeping moments.
All ‘that’ must die to live the aliveness that is always happening with complete freedom. What dies is illusion.
What is it the makes up illusion? Just illusion. Reality was never un-whole. It just appeared that way from a jaundiced view.
The death of an illusion need not be mourned, as it was only a seeming illusion. The Reality never suffers as It’s wholeness is never diminished by illusion. Illusion literally means nothing.
The point is that the starting point does NOT begin with the illusion. The starting point has never changed. The starting point has always been here and Now, as there is nothing else, including time, to say otherwise.
When we abide in the illusory and seeming self, we abide in illusion. This is because we dis-allow the ’Openness’ with our seeming need for following thoughts i.e. identification with thoughts as us.
Openness never pushes. Illusion constantly pushes. Openness is effortless acceptance, while the illusory self requires enormous maintenance as it is not even real.
Full acceptance versus a painful contraction of pushing, clearly distinguishes direction and starting point.
Resting as what is observing the illusion relieves the need to push. Appearances of thoughts, conditioning, memory, and identification are divested from the blind commitment that previously characterized one’s view.
The Openness allows without vetting, all comers and goers. The Openness is unaffected by what is perceived, as it Is the Perceiving only.
The appearances all have a short self-life. Illusions do not even have a shelf-life as they are imposters in time. They have never really existed. Their death was not even a death since they were never really born.
Abiding in a thought-based environment means that we believe in our little opinions, ideas, and predilections. Letting go of all that is necessary because the ‘m’ and ‘y’ in that, is what binds us to the illusion. When we free ourselves from this attachment we can easily accept the “What Is” effortlessly.
“All that is experienced is experience, but there is no independent self that experiences and no independent object, other or world that is experienced. There is just the experiencing of experience, and it is ‘experiencing’ that experiences experience.” -Rupert Spira
The Perceiving, the Openness, freely accepts life without the need to be the arbiter and/or dictator of life. Consciousness Is everything to include the starting and end point, as it is the same.
To live is to die first. What dies, can die. What lives, can’t die. See the effortless permanence that breathes life through us all, always. There is only Openness Perceiving Self. Rest here, watching the characters, appearances, and seeming dramas. This seat is the best seat in the theater.
Live life Here and Now.
Love the Love, Daddy’O
Ergo, the impossibility of change, as typified in the transitory and temporal manifestation, is the imperative of changelessness, e.g. Fullness. Fullness is the changeless change of the universe, that is the sustainer.
Nothing can be added and nothing can be subtracted from Fullness.
Fullness is unmanifested Beingness that has incredible stability due to it’s priorness to all manifestations. The stability has stability precisely because of the ‘no change’ ever-ness of the timeless ‘Now’.
All that, is occurring effortlessly due to the ‘no change’ in the infrastruture of the Now. Time is there to give the appearance of preventing manifestation from seemingly crashing into manifestation. Manifestation needs time in order to be manifestation, despite it’s birth from timelessness Itself.
Given our effort to have the base of existence, that is, eternity, as our base, we strive to achieve that, as our base. However, there is, as stated previously, nothing that can be added to ‘What already Is Now’. Any effort or will to even wish ‘that’ upon us, however munificent,is futile.
To add to Fullness, again, is impossible even in our so-called lives. The central issue is -to add on anything, is immediately counterproductive to Being Being.
Any ‘add-on’ is stepping away from Being and entering into the illusion of manifestation, especially when we take our feet out of Beingness to ‘do’ anything. Beingness must come first, as it is always prior and first with no second. Stepping out of Beingness is stepping out of Everything to engage in the futility of temporariness.
Our identity Is Beingness, Existence, Bliss. When we identify with manifestation as our predominant identity, there is an ‘add-on’ that cannot contribute to Consciousness. Consciousness or Beingness cannot be given qualities indigenous to temporariness. To do so, is not to limit Consciousness but to limit ourselves from full Consciousness. 
Perseveration of the illusory self by a constant barrage of likes/dislikes, wants, fear, attachment, and belief in the thought parade, does maintain the illusion and also limits access to “What Is”, our permanent nature. These ‘add-ons’ cannot stand with the contemporaneous-ness and aliveness of our Now. The add-ons are ‘dead’ weight.
We are the bliss that cannot be found. Finding ‘it’ would mean ‘it’ was lost. Looking for ‘it’ would mean we are not coming from ‘it’. We Are always ‘it’, even when we are obscuring ‘it’. ‘It’ Is what Is Seeing right Now. There Is no other. Nothing else can be added to ‘it’.
LOVE IS EVERYTHING FIRST
The point to be taken is that the primary position, as far as view is concerned, is monumental.
The common view we put forth to ourselves and everyone else, is that 
The ‘us’ is not the only sticking point. It is exacerbated when the starting point is the over heralded second place of creation.
Conversely, starting at the vastness of the ‘Priorness’ is starting at ‘everything’. When starting at ‘everything’ nothing is eliminated , reduced , or second-ed. It Is all first without an artificial second.
Consciousness Is. Happiness Is. Love Is. All 3 expressions are “Isness”. That is, they are interchangeable verbs without any noun-ing. They are all ‘Being’.
Love is particularly instrumental in illustrating the Divine connection of Being. We Are Love loving Love at all times.
When ‘Everything’ Is Love first, then the small differences are not given any quarter to prosper. Their status is not artificially upgraded at the expense of Being Love always. The ‘small’ differences do not have the starting point they would have, if the start were at ‘small’ differences. Thereby, the ‘small’ differences are moot.
They do not exist except in the story or screenplay we have created to make this movie called “Our Life”. We can replay the movie a million times, but the characters still do not exist outside of the movie. Outside the movie, there are no characters. Even if we want to believe there are characters outside the movie, it does not make the characters any more real.
If “Our Life” is just a movie with illusory characters, then there is a start and a stop, a beginning and end, to the movie. The movie is of course in time. But where is ‘time’? Is ‘time’ part of the artificial movie while eternity contains all ‘things’ to include ‘time’? Yes.
But what about the ‘I’? Is the ‘I’ illusory for 7 and one-half billion people? ‘I’ is the imaginary thinker, the imaginary doer, and the imaginary receiver receiving the pleasure and pain, giving drama and pathos to the character. Imagination is not Reality.
The character is analogous to the wearing of a garment. The garment appears to have life only when it is worn by the actor. It is the actor that animates the garment.
Animation makes the world go round. Without animation, there is no life or verb-ing. The garment is a noun. There is an actor but this actor is not a noun. The presumed actor is the constant refreshing of animation. This animation never stops verb-ing or Being. Being is the noun-less actor.
No longer is there a dumbing down to having shiny objects speak to the false construction of ‘I’. Seeing from the ‘I’ of formlessness, is seeing the futility of embracing temporal forms that have no substance, but rather Seeing the ‘Seeing’ is the permanence of Being the Being without struggle.
HAPPINESS IS NOW
To ask when we can have happiness and under what conditions, is to not know happiness, as happiness has no basis in time and is not conditional. ‘When’ is not an appropriate question to ask, ever. To ‘seek’ happiness in time, is to look away from happiness. To find the source of happiness, is to 
Happiness Is present as It is Presence Being. There is no getting happiness as it is not a gift or an object. It cannot be given as It Is everywhere/nowhere. Meaning that our True Nature is Happiness located everywhere while never being found anywhere. It cannot be found and cannot be ignored. It Is.
Whether ‘we’ realize it or not, happiness is always Present. It’s current form is formless but can be seemingly corralled by experientially feeling our ‘aliveness’, that is permanent and fresh as freshness can be. It is the subtle movement of energy moving within us and outside of us -actually not respecting any boundaries, to include the closed body/mind idea.
Happiness cannot be found in the past or the future, as those timezones cannot contain the vibrance of happiness. The non-Now bandwidth is too distorted and small to contain all ‘that’. The modulation of past/future as seeming reality, is only tragically reductive. The ‘aliveness’ is just not there.
If happiness is always Present, how could an event or experience say that it was the cause?!
That assumption of controlling happiness is an absurdity. The permanence of happiness precludes events and experiences of defining limitations to what is unlimited. For happiness to appear in starts and fits, is not to have clarity as to what happiness Is. Happiness Is always abiding no matter what our protestations are and how hard we yell them.
Happiness Is the immutable Priorness to the dreaming and seeming of so-called reality. The aliveness and joy of happiness is a permanent feature of the 
In other words, happiness is the starting/end point of even dreaming, but happiness never really starts or stops in the dream. Like the ’Now’, it is not linear like time. ‘Time’ is after the ’Now’ but ‘time’ is still inundated with the ’Now’. To separate happiness from the ’Now’ is to not understand Fullness. The separateness is only there in duality with the help of time.
Happiness Is, unabashed. It is the field of Being everything. To start every single moment from ‘Us’ (this field), is to be constantly coursing happiness with an authenticity that is so alive, it naturally attracts more of the same. The liberation is the knowing of ‘this’ happiness is accessible everywhere and at all times and places, as effortlessly as Being ‘Us’.
“Our Self, Awareness, is like an open, empty, allowing space. As such, we resist nothing, hold nothing, seek nothing. Thus, happiness is our essential nature.” -Rupert Spira 
Appearing
Everything is Divining.
Acceptance of the “What Is” is not true acceptance, when 50%, 75%, or even 90% of what our understanding is, is filtered through dross. Partial preferences are not viable. 
Unfortunately, it doesn’t take a whole lot to distort Truth, when Truth cannot truly be Truth and contemporaneously be an object. Mis-placement of honoring a one-dimensional ‘idea’ as Truth, deprives us of experiencing Fullness as un-conditional.
The torture of suffering abides easily when we unknowingly misrepresent Consciousness as second to the world and to our mind/body. This is the objectification of Consciousness, i.e. a ‘thing’.
Consciousness, precedes any noun-ing to include the body/mind, perceptions, sensations, feelings, and thoughts. The no-thing-ness of Consciousness is a reference to the emptiness of infinite potential that precedes any thing or noun-making. The elemental problem is often the assumption that we can find Consciousness like any other noun.
What is looking, feeling, tasting, touching, hearing, is the forgotten witness of conscious contact. Forgotten because of It’s eternal ubiquity and non-nouning. What is perceiving, cannot be known like a noun can be known. The knowing of Knowing is independent of any phenomena. That Knowing is eternally Present and independent of acknowledgement or un-acknowledgement. ‘It’ Is the eternal witness witnessing thought-less-ly.
Being aware of “What Is”, is Knowing. It Is Knowing Self (verbing) with no other (noun). Being aware of the 
When we reach for the shiny objects, aka thoughts, we invest in the dross not the substance of life. The act of reaching and claiming the shiny object is the beginning of the mis-identification and concretion of false self. The repetition is necessary to sustain the illusion that really has no life at all.
Losing the false identity, as the source of consciousness, is finding Consciousness as only Consciousness. Consciousness starts and ends with Consciousness, meaning there is never any ‘thing’ to ever find. What appears in Consciousness is not sustainable except through Consciousness and It’s play. The Dreaming dreams the dream. The screen allows the movie to play. The screen is first, the movie is temporarily second.
“Don’t lose yourself in thoughts and feelings; let them lose themselves in you.” -Rupert Spira
Consciousness ad infinitum.
LOVE LOVES LOVE
And the body is merely a vehicle for Love to be broadcast. Loving the internet because of its broadcasting powers, is not necessary for it to work. Similarly, the vehicle is merely the medium used for transacting love. The vehicle needs the fuel of animation for it to work. Love needs nothing as It is everything.
Though, Love remains Love regardless of what medium is used. Ramping up love is never necessary due to the fact that it can never be diminished.
The capacity of love seemingly differs among the human vehicles. The difference is not due to love itself modulating the quality and/or quantity of love.
The difference can be accounted for by the dreaming of the dream. Only in the dreaming of the unreal dream, does love suffer a loss or gain in the quantity/quality. And the dreaming is Love dreaming the dream. Love can seemingly be lost only in the dream.
“To know the world is to be the world, and to be the world is to love the world.”-Rupert Spira
The multiplicity of vehicles does not result in a-division of love. Love remains full and undiminished.
There Is no changing the essential nature of Love as it is not a thing. Things are nouns. Love is an active verb, meaning Love Loves Love ad Infinitum.
AWARENESS IS NOT A THOUGHT
The appearances of thought are appearances that do not have the permanence and stability of eternity existing as eternity.
The pointing, is to the view of
Maintaining the view of thoughts as secondary, as a permanent view; reduces the falseness of self, gradually revealing Self
Direct experience of the ‘Prior-ness’ , reveals a non-object. Awareness never falters in It’s Presence, as it Is the Conscious contact that Is Seeing, Tasting, Touching, Smelling, and Hearing effortlessly. These 5 gates are the conduits for the eternal ‘on’ of Awareness. Awareness is never ‘off’.
To abide in the Ineffable Awareness, is to have the primary view of Awareness as the starting point of nothing and everything happening constantly. The intersection with objects and Awareness has no adverse effects on Awareness. The basis of objects is Awareness, making Awareness integrated and undiminished.
The Ineffable Source of Being/Knowing
Daddy’O
That’s a peculiar question, but a relevant inquiry. It is peculiar in that we do not think about breaking down language to the point of how it’s use effects us -directly. It is relevant in that the ‘use’ presupposes an elemental framework with profound consequences. Albeit, consequences for a starting point called identity.
The Self of Awareness is luminous to Itself. The self of manufactured self is reflected and diminished luminance . The limitation on self as created object, is an imposition that is only indigenous to the dualistic self.
The light of Awareness never actually diminishes but appears to seemingly indulge in this limitation.
When we broadcast from the belief of false self, we engage in the acting upon the premise of limitation. Nevertheless, Our True Nature remains unchanged and seemingly appears to be inaccessible. The “lens of me” covers up and clouds the brilliance of expressing and accessing the unlimited bandwidth of effortless Knowing/Being.
The armoring is needed, as the fallacious noun cannot be revealed, lest the ‘idea’ of false self will expose the scam. Noun-ing is the one-trick pony that must occur constantly, in order to affirm an otherwise illusory nature. Ergo, the need for all that bandwidth.
Staying with the witnessing, is the knowledge that ‘this’ immersion will subsequently yield greater inculcation, and where full integration occurs resulting in effortlessness in Being being solidified.
“When we understand that what we deeply long for can never be found in an object, substance, activity, relationship or state, our longing naturally and effortlessly loses its direction and dynamism, flows back to its source, and is revealed as the happiness for which we were in search.” -Rupert Spira 
Our Presence is always available at all times as We are always ‘Seeing’ all the time. Being with the ‘Seeing’ is ‘ Seeing’. The accessibility of ‘Seeing’ has never left Us for a second. The ‘leaving’ was only found in the separate self. The Ineffable formless Self Is everything and cannot leave. It Is the Sustainer.
“Seeing’ and ‘Knowing’ are only available from the luminosity of Self Itself.
Love the Love, Daddy’O